Here's the entry I posted on my old private LJ explaining my situation for those of you who aren't in the loop.  I wrote it on January 25th.

Wow. Like that Staind song goes, "It's been a while..." lol. Today was a...weird day. A lot of people don't really know this but I've been real depressed lately and I haven't had the energy or drive to do **anything** for a long time besides sit on my @$$ on the computer and sleep. It's sad. There are a bunch of reasons that I'm depressed but I don't wanna go into it all right now. I am sick of school; my schedule is so easy and pathetic that it's almost pointless to go. I mean, I would never drop out of school but...arrgg. Lately I've been staying up till like 4 in the morning on SCHOOL NIGHTS. Yes I know, I'm crazy. I just don't get tired at night anymore. I pretty much only really sleep during the day now. I guess you could call me nocturnal. :P I'll stay up really late at night, then go to school and come back around noon and take like a 5 hour nap. My sleep patterns are all messed up basically. I'M messed up.
Anyway-this morning I didn't even wanna get out of bed to go to school....so I didn't. My mom can tell I've been down lately and she's really 'concerned' about me or whatever, so this morning she was like "get up and let's have some starbucks and a little talk". So she brought back coffee for both of us and we sat on the family room couch and talked for a little while about things...I told her why I thought I was depressed, and what I think I need to do to feel better. So...I think that what I need is to be busy everyday and have a set-in-stone schedule. I need to get a job and get out there and take some classes (like dance, or voice etc.) and GO to the gym...and I should feel much better once I'm actually making something out of myself. I basically *have* to get in shape for my career choice, and I want to as well for my own self. I want to come out on the music scene when I'm fully ready in all ways- so that I feel properly represented as ME; as the best that I can be...and I already feel that I'm ready mentally, vocally, and musically...just not physically. You know? Anyway-so this week my mom and I are going to try and think of a plan for me here...so yeah. Wish me luck, and if you get the chance sometime, would you pray for me?
Thanks.